Frustrations and Sleepy Babies

As I sit here listening to my daughter scream in her crib, once again resisting her nap, I can't help but think back on the days when she would sleep all day.  Literally all I had to do was put her down on something soft and she'd be out like a light.  No, seriously.  Of course I'm happy that she's healthy and happy and mobile, even though she keeps me exhausted!

Adding to my frustrations are the stresses of finding a house while staying with my mother in law.  Its hard to be comfortable in someone else's home even if they insist its your home, too.  It will never feel the same.  I can't leave laundry piled up for weeks and only have to worry about Daniel fussing at me.  I can't leave Zooey's toys out without coming into the den the next morning to find them all picked up.  I know that sounds nice, but it makes me very anxious.  I feel like I'm not doing my job or that its something that can be held over my head if I ever ask for a favor.  At night, I can't let Zooey "cry it out" when I put her down without someone poking their head in and asking, "And we're letting her cry because..."  Just to be clear, I'm not complaining about WHO I live with.  The situation just isn't ideal at this point in our lives.  I try to be thankful that we have somewhere to stay, food to eat, and that we're all healthy but some days are just so hard!

As far as looking for houses, we had our eye on a place that unfortunately fell through due to some shady dealings (not on our end, of course).  Despite our reservations we're still going to look at a few other properties through this same company.  So just say a prayer that God will point us to a place to start building our family!  We may also be getting a second car sometime in the next month; this depends on many things going exactly the right way.  Another car is something I've been begging God to send our way for a very long time.  Its hard for me to be shut up in the house all day.  I would love to be able to take Zooey to the park or to go play with other kids.  I know it isn't always convenient for other moms to come to us and, since we live in a smoking household right now, I know a lot of moms won't want to bring their children here.  Anyway, it would just be a huge blessing and a burden lifted for me.  Hopefully I'm not asking for these things with a selfish spirit.

I'm trying to get on the ball with this month's craft and some more recipes.  For a while, I'll probably just post food that I'm very comfortable making so if you've ever had dinner with me prepare to see some familiar dishes here soon!

Just another sleeping sweetheart to finish off your time here!